In previous entries, I unpacked how I let go of certainty, how I began to value credibility over charisma, and how I came to terms with not always “knowing.” Today’s post is about something softer — how I started to rediscover God… not in doctrine, but in creativity.
🎨 Creating as Communion
This past summer, something clicked. Not in a lightning bolt way — more like a gentle tap on the shoulder.
I started to feel God in my creative process.
Not in a “pray for the right chord progression” kind of way.
Not in a “God gave me this song and you must listen” kind of way either.
It was more like… co-creating. Less dependence, more partnership.
When I’m fully engaged in making something — really creating — I feel the divine. I don’t need to hear a voice or see a sign. I’m not looking for theology in my DAW. But when I’m writing, composing, or even just improvising on the piano, I remember that I’m a living being with breath, ideas, and beauty to contribute.
That’s the closest I’ve come to worship in a long time.
📚 A Word from Julia Cameron
I recently finished Walking in This World by Julia Cameron — the follow-up to The Artist’s Way. A couple of passages hit me right in the sternum:
“We are embracing an idea of God as a withholding God whose intentions for us are counter to our own dreams… we do not see the Great Creator as a cocreator… Rather, we see God as a barrier, a withholding parent who denies our dreams.
Most often, we are who denies them.”
…and:
“Each one of these gateways to the divine is there waiting for us to use it to make contact… There are some things that simply make us happy, some things that we plainly and for no apparent reason love.
For this reason, we say, ‘God is in the details.’”
That last line — God is in the details — gave me chills. Because for the first time in a long time, I’m starting to believe that again.
🛑 What I’m Not Saying
I’m not saying creativity replaces faith.
I’m not saying art is a stand-in for God.
I’m saying that when I make something with integrity, focus, and joy — especially joy — I feel something divine happening inside of me.
It’s not showy or supernatural. But it’s real.
💡 Creative Flow as Sacred Space
I used to think prayer was a thing you did with folded hands and closed eyes.
Now I think prayer can look like:
Opening a blank session in Logic.
Rewriting a lyric until it finally feels like truth.
Getting so lost in sound design that an hour slips by unnoticed.
That’s when my inner world feels most connected to something bigger. Not something above me… something within.
❤️ Final Thought
Maybe God isn’t waiting for us at the altar.
Maybe God’s been sitting next to us in the studio all along.
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